The idea for this blog started almost two years ago. Work began about a year and a half ago, with the idea that we would launch when everything was ready. So it sat for months and we would work on it in spurts. Finally, in January, my husband and I buckled down and decided to pick a launch date and work to have anything ready that we needed by then. For no real reason, other than it was the perfect blend of attainable and it lit a fire under us to finish, we picked March 1st. And everything was done by then.
One factor that did not get considered in picking a launch date was my pregnancy. We found out that I was pregnant at the beginning of February and it never occurred to me that the pregnancy would affect any goals we had for the blog. I was wrong. This is my second pregnancy, and I have suffered the typical exhaustion and nausea that comes with the first trimester during both of them. This time, it really knocked me on my butt.
There was no maximization to my days whatsoever. If a day ended with my daughter still alive and well and our house was standing, it was a success. I slept every possible minute and laid down whenever my daughter let me. My husband took care of grocery shopping and I’m fairly certain that we will be responsible for a spike in profits for the Stouffer’s company. All the while, this little blog went live and my ideas and insights for squeezing the most out of life were available for anyone to read.
I felt like such a hypocrite.
My day to day life looked nothing like the habits I was promoting. Family and close friends kept reminding me that this was just a phase. It won’t be like this forever. And while I knew that this was true, it didn’t make me feel any better.
I finally started to turn a corner at the beginning of April and had grand plans for a month of posts about the benefits of and tricks for menu planning. Obviously, that never happened. Even though I was starting to feel better, it took me a lot longer than I would have liked to get back in the swing of things. And the longer I didn’t do anything with the blog, the more the hypocrisy lingered over me. Who am I to make suggestions to people when I don’t do them myself? Even when I’m not nauseous every waking minute of the day.
Then I remembered why I started this little endeavor to begin with. It’s so easy to look around and be overwhelmed by what we think we should be doing or look like or have and settle for the lie that it’s not possible. There are limitations, obviously. I’m never going to be the mom that runs marathons, looks like Kate Middleton or has the shoe collection I covet. But parts of what I desire for my days to look like are attainable with some self-discipline and help from others. And I firmly believe that this is true for everyone. Our surrounding circumstances do not dictate what our life has to look like.
When I started reading blogs a few years ago, I found a few that I really enjoyed and read faithfully. But most of what I found on the blogosphere made me feel inferior (through no fault of those bloggers – it’s just my own insecurities). When I first thought about ‘Maximizing Days’, my hope and goal for it was that it would be a place where people would be encouraged and feel equipped – and that it would show real life.
Pregnancy sickness and exhaustion lead to two months of inactivity, missed opportunities, messes, and a lot of tears. But, by God’s grace, in four short months, the end result of that will be a beautiful bundle of joy that I can hold in my arms (along with more inactivity, missed opportunities, LOTS of messes and a lot of tears). Those days are over now. New days are here. And with each of those days, I can choose to make the little decisions that make life better in the big picture.
And you can too.
Those grand plans that I had for meal planning tips are now in the works for the month of June. Stay tuned.